First Date?

So I am suppose to have a date tomorrow night. New girl. Young girl. Very pretty girl. I'm usually not apprehensive about dates, even first ones. They usually go pretty well. This date tomorrow has me worried. I don't know why... Part of me wants to cancel. Part of me expects her to cancel. It's nothing against her. She is very beautiful. There are certain girls who catch my eye and I want to be near them constantly. She has the looks that I want to be around. It's just the communication level is horrid right now. We will text a few times a day, but still. Where is the excitement? I would have it if she would show it more.

So honestly, I don't know what to expect tomorrow. I haven't heard from her tonight. Is this date even going to happen? If the date happens, what are we going to do? How is it going to be? I leave Friday for Hawaii and I probably won't see her till after Christmas. Will that have any effect on tomorrow? Does anyone give a shit about this? Why am I so dependent on finding love, when sometimes I really don't want it.

This song really gets to me. I love it. I can relate to it.