out/underspoken

hi.

sometimes i feel like i talk too much. if i kept my mouth shut about certain things or just played it cool then i would receive better results in personal relationships. then again, that is just how i am. i just don't know when to start or stop with talking.

met a new girl this past weekend, well technically i met her a year and half ago when she was under the drinking age. now, she is of age and i saw her out. we struck up a conversation. became lame facebook friends and exchanged numbers. now we text a little bit. i am just watching how much i say or text her. for one, don't want to be too bothersome. two, i don't want to come on too strong. three, don't want to sound like a loser....then again, you have to show some interest. some flirting. some characteristics about yourself to show yourself off.

ughh..meeting new people is exciting but nerve racking. maybe that is why i am always so hung up old crushes/flames. i know them. i know who and what they are. with new interests, you really don't know what you are getting yourself into. it's all new.

also, why do i always feel so guilty for finding a new love interest? it's like i don't want to tell certain people about my new crush. For example: CXS and I have been talking and spending more time together the last week and a half. if you are new to HMMR (this blog), CXS is one of the sweetest girls i have ever met. plus, she is so beautiful to me. we have a connection but we can't get on the next page. we look at each other like lovers, but we can't take it to the next level. so now i feel really bad telling CXS that i met someone new after me and her have connected more lately. i feel like i need to be under spoken until i figure out this whole new situation with this new girl. CXS has had her chance with me. sad that is she is basically out of time. for now at least..

you snooze, you lose.

but hey, cheers for me by getting myself out there and trying out new people. let's see how i ruin my chances with the new prospect. disregard that..gotta be positive. let's see how well this goes with the new one. (that's a little better.)