New Years Sleeve

"I wish you a broken heart and a happy New Year"

New Years Eve is tonight if you haven't noticed. This day and the next day never run in my favor. This year I am not having a date. Broken hearts rain down usually for me, especially when the clock strikes 12.

There is a girl who could accompany me this evening, but I am not going to be around her. I know how the story will end. So I want to avoid this from happening. She will have to go somewhere alone.

What am I doing tonight? I am still up in the air about it. I keep changing my mind.



I plan to have fun regardless of what I do and where I go. I am not going to let anything bring me down. I have to start the new year on a good foot.

Recent happenings: My mom decided to stay until Friday now. She was going to go back today, but she will stick around for a few more days. I finally got hot water and heat in my house. My computer still has not been touched, thus it has not been fixed. I think by Friday I will have it back safely in my house.

Back to New Years. I hope everyone has a great one and their year is awesome. I don't wish bad years on anyone. Just heartaches for some.

I feel like this year will be different. It will be good. Lots of things will happen, hopefully mostly improvements from the previous year. New attitude, new behavior and lifestyle changes as well. I will fill more about this later after the new year begins.

I hope everyone will be safe and responsible.

"Have we lost everything now?
Walking like each other's ghosts
Around these silent streets
The sedatives tell you everything is alright

Like calendars dying
at New Year's Eve parties
As we kiss hard on the lips
and swear this year
will be better then the last

Ten seconds left until midnight
nine chances to drown ourselves in black hair dye
eight faces turned away from the shock
seven windows and
six of them were locked
five stories falling
forever and ever
three cheers to the mirror
now there are two of us
can we have one last dance?"