Oh Hamburgers!

Hi,
It's been a few days hasn't it? Kind of been keeping to myself. Lots on the mind as usual, but I am fine with everything that has transpired recently. Some of it isn't good news, but what can you do? Give up on things? Maybe, Maybe not. I just need to follow my code. The Code of Brent! I will explain the code some other time.

Late last night after having a few drinks, I got to chat to my California bf via instant messenger. Maybe she was drunk too. She asked if I was drunk, and to be honest I kind of was. The things she was saying to me seemed to be what a drunk person would say. She basically laid out the fact that she has been in love with me since day one. How she wants to marry me, we always have said that we would but you know, its just for convo and for laughs. Never really serious. She seemed to be serious and even talked about moving back to where I live.
She was my first friend at Texas A&M. I rescued her when she was locked out of our private dorm. She was in tears with her mom. So we struck up a friendship right from the start. I was very attracted to her at the get go. Especially her eyes. We would always get dinner and I would do concerts for her in my dorm room and she loved it. We loved spending time with each other, but I knew that she would eventually get tired of me and once she met some better looking college guys, I would be old news. So of course she gets a boyfriend a month later and he won't let her talk to me. During Christmas Break on my last year at A&M, we found each other on Facebook and became great friends again. The dinners started up again, movie nights took place. My romantic feelings for her were instantly back, but I could never read her. So I never made a move. She now constantly brings up the fact that I didn't make my move then and how she wanted me to. So I regret that.
So now...she tells me that she broke up with her boyfriend. She needs someone like me. She loves me and she will move anywhere I want to go. To me, this sounds too good to be true. I have told girls that I love them before after they have said it to me, because I do love them as friends. Romantically, I think I have been in love in that way twice. At least at the time, I thought I was... One knew, one didn't (since I never told her which is now a good thing). So yeah, I love this girl as a friend. I just can't expect this stuff to happen. It's more of a, "I'll believe it when I see it" sort of thing. Could I romantically fall in love with her? Oh yeah. We get along great. We both are weird/nerds and have a lot of the same interests. If she lived here, I would be all up on her biz all the time. I just don't know if that would be vice versa.
To finish up about her, she is planning to visit for a football game this year with me. Also a basketball game, since I have season tickets to both. That will be an interesting visit! She also keeps begging me to come visit her in the OC (where she lives). I would love to. Maybe I will make that happen.

California Dreaming?

The last time I saw her, which was a little less than 2 years ago.

Speaking of visiting, one of my best best friends from back home will be here the last weekend of this month. He is a hippie, but totally awesome. Very charming guy. I use to get really jealous of him in high school, because he would get all the girls I wanted. It pissed me off to no end. Of course I'm over it now. He just got back from the country of Moldova, which is in Eastern Europe. He was in the Peace Corp for 2 years. Now he is going to move to Hawaii and continue being a free spirit tree hugger. I'm happy for him and maybe I can go visit. So that weekend will be OC with him here.

Yeah.
Peace Out.